You ever felt like your Pastor was talking directly to you?
Ever felt like…now HOW did HE know that was what I was dealing with?
Well that’s what happened to me when my FAVORITE Pastor was talking about the power of GOD’s deliverance.
First let me give you a quick back drop to what was going on in my head…
I’ve been very transparent about the impact losing my father suddenly has had on my weight and how I’ve had to hire at one point someone who specializes in grief to help me cope and heal at the level I craved healing but in the process of all of that some of my VERY OLD eating habits resurrected. For instance, in moments of really difficult heartache I would go to the drive thru at McDonalds and get sausage (you know they have that “have breakfast all day” marketing going on) and my Daddy and I used to have breakfast “all day” meaning at night sometimes and so in some way it connected me to him BUT it also connected me to a larger pair of pants and THAT…THAT was a DISCONNECTION that needed to take place!
ANYWAY…that’s the struggle and honestly it was a struggle that I had been praying about and yes…you could say asking for GOD’s deliverance.
AND THAT’s when my Pastor had the nerve to say something that hit me SO HARD I honestly wanted to walk out. Not because I didn’t like what was said but because the impact was SO deep I just needed some time to process …so he goes
People come up to me all the time and say Pastor I asked the Lord to deliver me from “so and so” but I still can’t help doing “so and so”. I don’t know what the Lord is doing in my life because I’m not delivered. (that’s my paraphrase of his setup)
AND THEN…OMG…he said the life changing comment
GOD WILL NOT DELIVER YOU FROM WHAT YOU STILL WANT TO DO
GOD WILL NOT DELIVER YOU FROM WHAT YOU STILL WANT TO DO
Hold up…STOP the PRESS…“what you STILL want to do”
Real talk…on some level with my YEARS of being in this space of weight loss and wellness I had to admit that on some level I still wanted to indulge I just didn’t want the consequences of the indulgence. Can you relate? You know you wanna still have a LITTLE but have A LOT of progress?
Was it possible that my heart wasn’t turned to GOD for COMPLETE DELIVERANCE ?
COMPLETE DELIVERANCE as defined as Lord destroy my DESIRE and WILL for ANYTHING(including that sausage) separating me from the Cledra YOU had in mind?
I’m convinced that when it comes to at least weight loss we want the Lord to help us with being disciplined TO A POINT. Help us TO A POINT where we can see PHYSICAL RESULTS(smaller clothes and a lower number on the scale) but GOD is interested in SPIRITUAL RESULTS.
Numbers like the number of times we look to HIM for comfort instead of a cookie, the number of minutes we study HIS WORD, the size of our faith, the willingness to drop the “scales” of judgment and offer grace.
GOD looks at the heart and I was convicted so much by what my Pastor said that I was led to go before God and admit that I wanted to change consequences more than I wanted deliverance and to search my heart , break my will, replace it with YOUR purpose, and renew my mind.
Can’t wait to tell you what happened next but I will say it has changed my life AND my body, but for now…I wanna invite you to go to GOD and get real about your position.
Have you been asking for deliverance from something that on some level you still really wanna do? Do you want deliverance more from the consequences than a true break from ever having the desire?
I also invite you to Relevant Life Ministries to hear my favorite Pastor…Pastor Eddie Gross.
Worship is at 10:30 am on Sundays at 1860 Sandy Plains Road Marietta, GA 30066
Leave me a comment and let me know …have you asked for deliverance? Do you have it? Do you still on some level still want to do what you asked to be delivered from ?
Post below OR come tell me in person because I’ll be up front with my favorite Pastor at the end of service to greet and welcome you!
LOL,
Cledra Gross
